More Random Thoughts...

I live in a house with a couple of boarders and a family. The family has been good to me ever since I moved in last October. I really like it here. I feel comfortable, I don't have to hide my sexuality from anyone here. Everyone knows I'm gay. It is strange though...when I go home to visit my parents I have to hide the fact that I'm gay from them. I'm not sure why I do this...well maybe it is I don't want to ruin a relationship that is so good. I know my parents are pretty cool and they want the best for me. I know one of these days, I'm going to have to get the courage to tell them I'm gay. And from there I will have to deal with what might happen after...Speaking about gay things...I'm going to be joining Brock Pride this September. It is a University group for gay people. Even though I don't go to Brock, I'm more than welcomed to come out(haha) to their meetings. I have been wanting to join this group ever since I heard about them. The one thing that was keeping me from joining them was Scouts. Now that I'm no longer going to be in Scouts, my time is open to new things....Yes that is right...after almost 16 years or so of Scouting...I'm finally saying good bye to that part of my life. Too be honest the last couple of years have not been fun for me. I just don't have the desire to do it anymore. I lost it a few years ago. I'm not sure if I will ever find it again...maybe someday I will. But for now I'm not interested in doing it anymore. The last straw was at the BBQ when I found out the new "Leadership Team" decided to plan for next year without me. I have to admit, I don't really blame them. It was sort of my fault. I didn't really have any imput. And when I did have the imput, they said it wasn't a good idea. So Scouting is over for me. My last Scouting Event will be WIC. And that is it....Now on to work. Friday I find out wether or not I'm going to have a full time job after Labour Day. I really have no idea how this is going to turn out. I really don't. I'm thinking about what other things I could do there. I could be a houseman, I could work at the front desk or I could work at Ruby Tuesdays as a bartender! All of these things I could do. But will anyone give me a chance? Please somebody give me a chance!! Let me prove to you that I can handle the job. Just give me one more try!! Nothing really new in the boyfriend(or should I say lack of boyfriend) department. I hoping when I join Brock Pride something good may come out of this. I would really like to meet a nice normal gay guy. It would be really nice. I think I do deserve that!! I'm just tired of being single. I want guy to love and have lots of fun with. It is all I ask for now!! Someone to complete my life. Is there anybody out there for me?