Today I will find out wether or not I will be sticking with Travelodge after Labour Day weekend. I'm going to talk with my boss today when I get to work. This should be interesting. I really hope he can find me some work there. I really need a full time job right now. So I'm crossing my fingers right now. :)
I live in a house with a couple of boarders and a family. The family has been good to me ever since I moved in last October. I really like it here. I feel comfortable, I don't have to hide my sexuality from anyone here. Everyone knows I'm gay. It is strange though...when I go home to visit my parents I have to hide the fact that I'm gay from them. I'm not sure why I do this...well maybe it is I don't want to ruin a relationship that is so good. I know my parents are pretty cool and they want the best for me. I know one of these days, I'm going to have to get the courage to tell them I'm gay. And from there I will have to deal with what might happen after...Speaking about gay things...I'm going to be joining Brock Pride this September. It is a University group for gay people. Even though I don't go to Brock, I'm more than welcomed to come out(haha) to their meetings. I have been wanting to join this group ever since I heard about them. The one thing that was keeping me from joining them was Scouts. Now that I'm no longer going to be in Scouts, my time is open to new things....Yes that is right...after almost 16 years or so of Scouting...I'm finally saying good bye to that part of my life. Too be honest the last couple of years have not been fun for me. I just don't have the desire to do it anymore. I lost it a few years ago. I'm not sure if I will ever find it again...maybe someday I will. But for now I'm not interested in doing it anymore. The last straw was at the BBQ when I found out the new "Leadership Team" decided to plan for next year without me. I have to admit, I don't really blame them. It was sort of my fault. I didn't really have any imput. And when I did have the imput, they said it wasn't a good idea. So Scouting is over for me. My last Scouting Event will be WIC. And that is it....Now on to work. Friday I find out wether or not I'm going to have a full time job after Labour Day. I really have no idea how this is going to turn out. I really don't. I'm thinking about what other things I could do there. I could be a houseman, I could work at the front desk or I could work at Ruby Tuesdays as a bartender! All of these things I could do. But will anyone give me a chance? Please somebody give me a chance!! Let me prove to you that I can handle the job. Just give me one more try!! Nothing really new in the boyfriend(or should I say lack of boyfriend) department. I hoping when I join Brock Pride something good may come out of this. I would really like to meet a nice normal gay guy. It would be really nice. I think I do deserve that!! I'm just tired of being single. I want guy to love and have lots of fun with. It is all I ask for now!! Someone to complete my life. Is there anybody out there for me?
I'm listening to Tim and Donna talk to me about their problems about their relationship troubles and it occurs to me they have a lot of issues that need to be resolved fast...or else something bad is going to happen. I don't want to get in the middle of it because if I say something wrong I could get into a lot of trouble. And quite frankly Tim is scarying the hell of me right now. And I don't like that one bit. He is ready to snap and I for one do not want to be there when it happens. For everyone's sake I think they need to see a professional counslor who will help them out. I don't want to be involved with it...
So I watched the movie The Butterfly Effect finally. I heard some bad reviews about it, but I still wanted to see it for myself. It wasn't too bad, but it wasn't too good either. Too many changes made the movie confusing at times. But just think about it...if you could change the past would you want to? I realized things are meant to happen for a reason. I can't stop death, I can't make someone love me(even if I try so many times) etc. But there are things I can control in my life. Where I'm working, who I'm seeing, where I'm living. Even though things don't always go my way, I still enjoy my life. I know I have a lot of things to look forward to. I just have to make them happen. So maybe it is time for another change for me...
I'm 30 years old. I like to make people laugh and smile. I sometimes can be shy at first...but once I get to know you better. I open up and talk like anything. I have short brown hair with blonde highlights.
